16 march 2018

16 march 2018

John Bjarne Grover

Today I first spent too many hours of my life and working capacity with writing the very needed but critical article Shadows and Black Sea Loop. Is this sour-webbing never going to come to an end? Why isnt there any responsibly authorities who could take the job of coming up with all the dirt? Shouldnt I work with something more interesting? My life get a wrong turn from all this - I get a wrong relation to society. It all comes out wrong.

I then went downtown and in Morawa bookshop I decided to buy a book - I took it to the counter where a woman greeted me friendly but in the moment when she directed the laser beam towards the bar code and it would be too late to change the mind, she said "blöd oder?" I changed my mind (not my brain, though) and did not want the book after all. A pity.

In fact it was in the same bookshop, same counter, that I some years ago bought a book of Lorca and the small place Lorca in Spain was damaged by an earthquake some time later - on a time point which corresponded with the numbers on the receipt slip I had got from them. When I now look this up on the web page I wrote about it - see under 'Lorca' - it turns out that this was on the day 7 years ago.

If there should be any hopes of progress for the culture, the name of the author of the book I tried to buy today should not leak out - if you are in a bottleneck there in the biz of the town and you are asked on the telephone, er, what was it the book he tried to buy? - if you do NOT tell it then there is a little hope. It is YOUR personal integrity which is the problem. Otherwise the story is only that you (the society) got info from me and I got nothing. That is the same as the illegal tapping of my work and life. It is this which must be brought to an end.