29 april 2022

29 april 2022

John Bjarne Grover

I went for a trip to Bratislava to post a letter (without CARDs and KADRs) and there I also wanted to go to a nice place I knew for a meal - but when I went down the stairs there was a short blackout of the lights - not much more than a second or so (and without much 'FOFF') and I decided to give up the attempt and go out again. I speculated who controlled the electricity and fancied that it could have been surveillance following me and that it could have been an austrian initiative. The reason for this was the front page news on 26 april 2022 - that a 'Willi Resetarits' had died from a fall down some stairs in his home - he seems to have resembled the brazilian pianist Nelson Freire who also died from a fall in his home on 1 november 2021. The two were perhaps strangely similar:

Here is Resetarits (photo from this file) and here is Freire (from this file).

It seems that Resetarits was called 'Ostbahn', for whatever reason, and before I left for travelling with an 'Ostbahn' to Bratislava (not the 'Westbahn' to München) I had looked in the mirror and an 'uuf' escaped my mouth. Another traveller interrupted me on the railway station and needed help for finding 'U4'.

My 2015 'Der Dornenstrauch', which ends with the line "die wahren Gottesbilder", has also a stanza in DDS III:50:

Es ist das Prosa-Denken
das lebt in Politik.
Man will die Welt was schenken
wie die Macht der Musik.

It seems that the trend these days is to put in an R in the third position, after the two first letters of a word. Such as WIEN → WIREN - could be in line with 'BEOFULF' → 'Beerhallputsch' etc. (This allegedly ancient poem that is said to have survived a fire in 1731 seems to contain some of these). In this fragment it could come out as "die Mat der Musik" = 'the food of music' and from there "die Mart der Musik". Clearly this could have been the reason why I associated with the recent news of the death of Resetarits in Austria. It also costs something to travel, the letter must be stamped etc.

The short blackout in the stairs - if made by some intrigue - could perhaps have a 'political' background in the idea of 'purke = she-pig' as a label on me if I shoud have been subjected not only to skull opening and masturbation on cortex in the earliest days but also (if that were the story) rape in drugged condition while being forced to breathe through a sanitary towel soaked in menstrual blood. I am not certain if I understand these mechanisms but fancy that it could have been a part of Hitler's 'dritte Reich' way of thinking. In short, it could - if I should have been subjected to such rapes in my puberty and if this stairway blackout were organized because I went down there - have been for redirecting the concept of the yinyang female half of my world onto a rapist of my puberty. This is what I believe could be contained in the 'politics' associated with the 'wrandah' of the U2 U-Bahn curve that now is under construction at Neubaugasse / Zieglergasse - could be for the simple idea of 'Neuglaubgasse' / 'Zaubergasse'. What sort of 'Zaubergasse' could have anaesthesized me I dont know, at the time when my 'tutsies' were drilled up by the school dentist, but I would not take much faith in such 'Neuglaubgasse' that could have been involved in such a rape. (My account of this assumed puberty time rape suffers from lack of empirical data).

It was around 3 march 2022 while I walked by this 'purke' at Wiener Stadthalle (there was a 'Messe' there with lots of students: "Choose your future" was apparently the theme) that a young man sprang up and waved his palm in front of the snout of the pig - or maybe in front of its eyes - and it could have been this which made me associate with that theory of a sanitary towel.

When I returned with the train there were folks on the platform holding a name sign up in the air, or was it an URL - at the place where one goes down the stairs.

It is possible that my travel and its purpose could have been guessed in advance - since Good Friday.

I refer also to this file. Over my kitchenbench there is a cord for a kitchen lamp - this is how it looks - even today, more than 12 years after I came to the place in late 2009.

30 april 2022: About my DDS III:50, it is called 'Zu lassen Tauben flug'. I have spent some time at the internet trying to find out if Hans-Henrik Holm's main work 'Jonsoknatt' is poetry or prose, but it seems impossible to find out of that from the internet. Of course, as soon as I have written this on my surveyed computer, there could come up pages which tell it - but apparently not before I wrote it.

As to the U4, there were people entering in Marchegg.

1 may 2022: One of those things which most seriously binds humans to history is the metabolism and need for food. Christiniaty has tried to solve this with the holy communion, and it is certainly an old version that some saints lived only from the eucharist. Birds probably fly longer than the energy they can store on their bodies, could be the empirical basis for this idea. But generally the body must have some energy for being able to move. Likewise, for making music one must use some 'power' - otherwise there wont be any sounds made. However, it is an interesting question whether the 2:22 minutes recording I made in Vienna (of the harp-like piano) and the xylophone in Venice were music made without use of 'power'. The idea could resemble my novel "The Dreamer" which is a novel without fiction.