Brief comments august 2025

Brief comments august 2025

John Bjarne Grover

Most recent entries first. For brief comments for earlier months see the end of this file

1 august 2025:

The seemingly 'all-important' condom from 1982 (the one that burst and did not keep its promises) was probably (or could have been) of type 'Black Jack'. A couple of days ago there was a black balloon on the sidewalk in Zinckgasse, under a cap hung up on the wall. Further up the street a round pillow ('rund pute', cp. 'rump ute' = 'rump out[side]') close by the housewall and in the ditch two flat seat-pillows.

If there should be people eating, it could be called (norw.) 'de spiste' = 'they were eating'. 'De spiste' → 'Dis piste'. Rong Dishen? (I have never intercoursed sexually with anybody's behind).

'Black Jack' → 'blekk jekk' → (norw.) 'ble kjekk' (got well, recovered) = 'ble frisk' → 'blefr isk' → 'bløffer ikke' = 'does not bluff'. 'Blef risk'?

There is a parliamentary election coming up in Moldova in the end of september 2025.

Did the crisis of 1988-89 (when I shared office with a person with name 'Dag Diesen' for some weeks or months - I have no reason to believe that he carried a gun) was 2-3 years before the declaration of independence in Ukraine 1991. Could a possible 'dis piste' have been a possible factor even in 1991?

Leonid Kravchuk was the first president of Ukraine. Norw. 'krav-chuk' = roughly 'claims-fat'.
Vitold Fokin was the first prime minister. 'This pis'?

The Klyuchevskaya Sopka volcano erupted a couple of days ago - apparently on 30 july, same day as the black balloon on the sidewalk. 'Blås opp' = 'blow up, 'inflate'. '[Klyuchevska]ya Sopka' → 'jazz groomer'? Were there jazz on Club 7?

A pity it would be if 'interests' abuse my life for controlling democratic elections around the world. It is probably illegal and it makes my life difficult.

3 august 2025: Ista - reads the water meter. Some news from Wien. Selbstablesung vs. Selbstabseelung.

3 august 2025:

An article on the 1973 Yom Kippur war to the extent that it could have served to index aspects of the history as far as my person (and possible identities of my official custody parents) are concerned. I am probably not the right person to write that article, though, if the complex should be of relevance for the history with Hitler and Himmler.

4 august 2025:

Eggen in the summer 1982 told me that at an appendix removal a chief doctor had told her that he would do it specially for her in order to prevent that it were clumsily made, but, as the ironic story element told, the result was not so very unclumsy.

If one combines this with the blue marks on her arm after I had led her by my hand on her arm out the door (when she refused to leave) - and the blue marks on her arm which she showed me on the next meeting were not from my hand - it can be seen as a rather precise indexation of the special characteristics of Ragna Grøver in the hospital bed a year earlier - in the summer 1981: She had a clean and clear cut - which still was open and one could in principle have put a Thomas fingertip in there - across her forehead (it was clearly done on purpose with a doctor's scalpel), but it was not even certain that she in the hospital bed had seen this in a mirror, and she asked me to take a look at a blue mark on her back, up at the left shoulder. She could have been anxious that it had been done on purpose by the doctors. I so did and concluded that it probably was from the safety belt ('selen') that had snapped (like the condom a year later) and hit her on the shoulder - on impact from the crash.

Hence there were at least three elements identical between 1981 and 1982 - the doctor's intentional scalpel cut, the blue mark that seemed strange and the 'safety belt' or condom that snapped/burst.

These three elements could also be seen as essential for what could have been the first real trauma of my childhood if my head were opened some weeks after my birth (the 'safety belt' which 'snapped' on top of the head) and a piece of the lower occipital lobe were scissored off (the scalpel), if somebody masturbated a spurt on the other hemisphere (the blue mark). The result of the opening of an infant's head can be one of the main parametres in modern international politics.

After the story with Eggen/Grue in 1982 - which was the last of the octogon 1977-1982 - thing started to turn around in my relation to society. See the concluding remarks to this article: While there initially seemed to be widespread 'support' to my little person in the society against (more or less fancied) nazis, in terms of e.g. the song "Naken greve jager neger med øks" by 'Tramteatret', which, though, for me would have looked like sheer mobbing of my name, which I could not explain, after Eggen/Grue 1982 things started to turn around and the 'burglar' which could have been conceived initially as horrendous child abuse ('leaning over the needle that did not curl up' etc) with a chemical horror injection (assuming that I had not done it myself), this role was turned around onto me as the 'burglar' who broke into the marital unity of the octogon couples, and the society started supporting Grue against me - untill the 'burglar' was recognized as me.

Assume that there was horrendous child abuse of me with head opening and injection of chemical horror, the society could not really ask me to partake in the competition on the labour market or even to remain in an employment condition. How did they solve this?

The system of 'guaranteed artist/author income' was established in 1977 when the 'octogon' began. It could have been a way for me to have an income as author without being classified as 'disabled'. But after Eggen/Grue this came to be rather difficult or impossible in Norway also since the couple probably came to be rather influential in the field of publishing in Norway, and when I in 1999 applied for stipend and guaranteed income for authors, including books 1-4 of my 'The Endmorgan Quartet' with the application, it was rejected. If the system had been established for giving me a chance to have an income without the label of 'disabled', that made perhaps not really sense, but in 1999 the roles had already turned enough around for it to be 'not comme il faut' to support me in the literary circles. Instead I was driven to forced psychiatric treatment and the reason I got from the doctors was that I, as they explained, had been a bright student in school but my (social) career had deteriorated constantly since then - and it looked miserable. The roles had turned around, that could mean - and it was not probable that 'Tramteatret' and those circles could declare themselves as friends of me. The declaration for a wish to have me hospitalized in psychiatric custody was signed by Ragna Grøver, as the doctors told. Hence the roles had turned - which could have included the role associated with the idea of 'burglar'.

Hence the apparently massive media attention to my name and story in 1976/1982 had come to look somewhat opposite in 1999 - and one could speculate if this were about the three elements of the 'safety belt' or condom that snapped ('johng', 'ronk'), scalpel ('jarnegg') and blue marks ('røver'?) which could have been the essence of an early childhood trauma and which could be rather important for international politics - cp. the name of Zelensky in Ukraine. I think it was in the early days of the war there (2022) that news told that Zelensky had been in a car crash (but was left unharmed).

Would the octogon have been organized by the state of Norway for this role-turning mechanism - for turning the 'burglar' - who could have broken in through my skin in 1959 for injecting horror chemicals there - into the role of me as 'burglar' into the 8 marital unions - conceived as the same burglar that could mean associating me with a 'beast of terror'?

If Hitler and Himmler should have been hiding behind the facades in some form or other, the story could mean that it served to guide people into a support for what could have been old nazis against me. If a 'Black Sea Loop' in eastern Europe (the eastern branch of a swastika on Europe from Paris around the Black Sea to Turkey) were planned already then, say, in the nazi Wannsee conference of 1942, it could have been a part of the plan to blame the jewish genetics for such evil.

The octogon started with Jette Råboe Larsen in 1977. She was a fresh chief of the music department where I had got a temporary engagement in the summer 1977 and she was a generation older than me and it would not have been so very easy to get me involved. The library opened at 9 in the morning and one morning Ragna Grøver knocked on the door some minutes before 9 for a message of some kind - I dont remember what it was - which could have been the sign that I had no choice.

The mystery of the summer 1982 was that the three essential elements (snapped condom or 'safety belt', scalpel story and blue marks) were the same as for Ragna Grøver the summer one year earlier - but how could these things be the same? It would have been a rather private experience of Ragna Grøver - it would have been an anxious state of mind which were concerned if the doctors had done it on purpose - otherwise a blue mark was not so special in the circumstances of the effect of a frontal car crash. I cannot remember if I had told these details to anybody but would doubt it.

5 august 2025:

There was the crisis in my life at the end of the 1980's. One possible cause of this could have been that I met the alleged father John Grøver a few times at the cafe above the farmacy Svanen on Karl Johan Street in Oslo. I have computed from memories that he probably told about the death of his alleged sister Anna there, and it was there (in one of the meetings there) that the waiter came with a cup of coffee for him which he did not put on the table before him but poured right onto his trouser fly - which means that he was rather soaking wet in the trousers. Both he and the waiter pretended that it did not matter - so it seemed to be preappointed, which did not make sense to me. It is very possible that the Lockerbie bombing could have been not so long after this - unless it was before. It could anyhow have meant 'the lock of the two parts of a fly'. The later 2011 revolution in Egypt against Hosni Moubarak could in principle have been a follow-up since 'hosen-i' = 'in the trouser' and 'move-brak' = 'motion-bang', but it is also very possible that it simply meant 'ka-fis-tå-hva' = 'what-fart-toe-what' - which then even could have hinted to 'a doll fitler'. It is therefore not impossible that the meetings with him in Oslo, which then could have served to give him the chance to tell his identity (cp. these data) - and things like these could have contributed to my crisis. The blame for the Lockerbie bombing was dumped on Libya - which could have been for a further emphasis on 'ka-fis-tå-hva' = 'what-fart-toe-what' - could be in the sense of 'a doll fitler' = 'Lieb-ja'.

However, it seemed clear to me that the crisis was rather connected with the sharing of office with the person with name 'Dag Diesen' and I have speculated if the crisis was triggered by the allergic attack in Hammerfest, from which I nearly died - but the official parents claim that I had done it myself. If one assumes that it was due to an injection with horror chemicals, I had of course not done it myself - but if that should have been the case, it could have been for turning roles around. Why should the name of 'Dag Diesen' next to me trigger such a crisis? It would have been, I have speculated, if 'a misty day' tends to trigger such crises on people who have been in such 'chemical' circumstances - under the circumstances of the alphabet - 'a busy day, a foggy age' spoons (by neighbour in workspace) to 'a foggy day, a busy age' wherein 'a foggy day' = 'a misty day' = 'dag disen'.

I dont know if there must be more to it for triggering such a crisis - it felt like my inside was burning up, which could have been indicative of such a childhood experience - such as 'masturbation' as a needed component for making a crisis out of it. It is true that I masturbated a few times in my private home in those years - but certainly not in the context of the workspace - and it could not in itself have been any reason for such a crisis. I dont know if it could be a necessary component for triggering the crisis, though - if this is an old and wellknown complex, for example - known to the 'secret intelligence services' maybe but kept secret as a precious intrigue component, for example.

Clearly the Lockerbie bombing after the meeting at the cafe (if that is how it was) could also have been a 'component' in such an intrigue.

There could be some reasons to speculate if the 'Dreamworks' animated film 'Megamind' which was released in october-november 2010 could have been based on this story from the late 1980's. It is because I believe I recognize Dag Diesen in the main character 'Megamind' and maybe also somewhat Marit Holden who was in the office on the other side of the wall. The question could be if the film really is about the immediate circumstances to that office. I emphasize that I have not seen the entire film, only some scenes available on the internet, and there are only vague associations of mine as basis of this idea.

If this should have been the case, the question could then be if this film released in october-november 2010 could have been a factor which triggered my crisis in the context of the presence of the cleaning firm 'TOP D&D' in the house where I was living in Zinckgasse in Vienna, not the least since there could have been some reasons to speculate if this firm has implemented data from my life and/or work in their market profiling, secondly if this potential firm profiling could have been included the name TOP D&D in associative contexts of 'A.Giessen' for 'D-ag D-iesen' and things like that. If so, it is well worth to consider the possibility that my crisis could have been in parallel with the socalled 'arab spring' revolutions in the following months - in Egypt (against Hosni Moubarak), Libya (against Gadaffy) - cp. the alleged libyan origins of the Lockerbie bombing - etc.

Furthermore one could consider whether the fantastic effect of this potential intrigue around my person in Zinckgasse could have served to be a buildup to the Donbass crisis and eventually to the outbreak of the war in Ukraine.

The element that triggered the crisis in those years was the floorcloth which the washing-man from TOP D&D had left at the wall close to my flat. I saw this floorcloth and the washing-man in a higher window and believed that he had forgotten it and took the cloth and gave it to him. It seemed to have been what caused the crisis but clearly that was a little difficult to understand. The crisis that developed was so bad that I could not be in the house on the weekday when he was there - and I could eventually not even be in town and made the habit of going for trips to other towns on that weekday - I left early and came back only after he had left.

So the question is whether the crisis really was triggered by a combination of the film 'Megamind' and the socalled 'arab spring' revolutions.

What is 'floorcloth' in hungarian? I looked up my english-hungarian dictionary and found that it is 'linóleum' - see this page in this dictionary from 1979 - which was surprising and probably wrong, so I tried to find out what it is called, which was not so easy. The best guess is probably 'padlótörlő' - but why is it so difficult?

I dont know why 'linóleum' seems to have such high explanatory value. 'Lind-ole-um' it could be vs. 'Lind-o[g]-le-um' = 'Lind-and-laugh-around' or even 'Lind-nål-e[r]-um' = 'Lind-needle-is-ended/around' or even 'Lind-needle-is-room'. 'Lind' is apparently a standard representation of 'Grover' probably by 'lund' = 'grove'. (For the 'laugh-around', I notice also the 'Megamind' film). This was in fact my theory on what triggered the crisis in the late 1980's - that certain elements in the circumstances cued the room in Hammerfest where the allergic shock took place enough for me to recognize the story from 1959: If there had been an injection of such things, I would have been totally dependent on a working hypothesis throughhout my childhood that it had been an accident and not pure evil - since such caretakers are not safe if they had done that on purpose. This fundamentally important theory could have come under serious attack not only from such things as the Lockerbie bombing etc due to the meetings in the cafe but also from a few circumstantial details if those had been deliberately installed in the circumstances of the late 1980's - and if enough details were present, I could have collapsed if there were no other rational explanation left than 'evil intentions' or the allergic attack and then my childhood foundations to my life would have needed a thorough refurbishment.

In addition, I have earlier speculated if the US TV series 'The Dynasty' could have been based on data from my life and work - the 1981 series could have been based on the element of 'self-sucking' of 1971 which could have been an absolutely necessary ingredient in an intrigue on my life if the purpose were to turn the roles around - and the replacement of the father in 1969 was under circumstances which could have served to encode the concept of 'auto-fella-ti-ho'. This situation of 1969 (at the then Vikebukt ferry station not far from Måndalen) could have been also the essence of the names of Jimmy Carter and Walter Mondale in 1976. If this be the story, it follows that I had no choice but to perform some such self-suckings in 1971 in order to give them the story element that they needed - the alternative option could have been well known since 1959. I had probably told in advance that this was not the thing with my 'spacewalk' without clothes in the autumn dark outside the window - it told that they could probably not let such surveillance material be left untouched - but it would not be very smart.

Now a part of the reason why I have speculated if The Dynasty 1981 could have been based on my self-sucking in late 1971 is that the intro video to the series contains some elements which I believe that I recognize from the floor 'linoleum' that I was sitting on: It was not normal linoleum but some more modern plastic covering - but in principle it could be called modern 'linoleum'. It would have been this I looked into when I ejaculated - hence, I speculated, would this have been what the TV viewers were looking into at the intro logo video to the first 'The Dynasty' (= 'die nasty') in 1981?

All this story elements could have been a western attempt to swap roles of me with Hitler - is that the story? And even Himmler? Is that what the Ukraine war really is about (I mean - has the russian invasion been provoked in order to be a reference to the Hammerfest story which is the locus of a potential role-swap)?

Lind-Ole-um (= Lind-Ole-around): Ole Skau Jakobsen pointed to the door (in their 1973 home) and said "han er der inne" = "he is in there". I opened the door (I do not remember if I knocked) and saw Petter Enok Skau Jakobsen on a mattress on the floor - he lay there resting in lifted posture on his elbows - as if during a sexual intercourse - and he looked at the door I came in through. This was the first time I met him. His official birthyear was 1957, like mine, as far as I recall.

When I now considered the 1970 record by 'Aunt Mary' I came to speculate if it had been inspired by the death of Paul Celan who has been assumed to have suicided in the Seine at Pont Mirabeau. I tell first the following background data of recent time:

Bus and train collided in the morning yesterday 4 august 2025 - near Inema train station between Lodeynoye Pole station in the Leningrad district and and Olonets stations in the Karelia district in Russia, that is approximately here (photo from 2013) - cp. the photo in the article.

The placename is appr. 'Lodeynoye Pole', while 'Lodeyroye Pole' would mean something like 'Idle Fielder' (cp. 'Adolf Hitler') - in which case the other side at 'Olonets' could come out as something like 'Horror-Nets'. The needed difference is 'NOY-[al]' turned into 'ROY-[al]'. Norw. 'nøye' = 'precise', often used about fine details.

Could it be seen to be on background of what I published the day before (3/8-25)? Cp. also the expression 'chemical horror' and things like that.

The place of the accident is called 'Inema' - while russian иней-ма would mean 'frost-mother', 'rime-mother'. Ah, 'rhyme-mother' - as if Ragna Grøver had written my poetry? She has not - and certainly, say, an allergic attack in Hammerfest is not the reason for my book title, the first book in 'The Endmorgan Quartet' - but I have been working with (still very unpublished) some aspects of Nelly Sachs' poetry which is relevant to some of my own. Would the crash have served to pull this work somewhat open?

A speculation could of course be that this accident in Russia could have been a computer-engineered target of terror based on fine details in the placenames such that the result of it (as I speculate here) could be that Nelly Sachs' poetry or my work thereon could be associated with e.g. Ragna Grøver or elements in interested administration - could be on background of what I published two days ago.

It can be mentioned also that I looked up internet early that yesterday morning - I would guess that it was well before this accident (the accident seemingly soon after 5 in the morning Vienna time) - for Paul Celan (Antschel) - his last residence at 6 Avenue Emile Zola for checking the distance down to Pont Mirabeau where it is assumed that he drowned himself. The background of this interest of mine was the record 'Aunt Mary' since my 'Aunt Marit' (cp. 'Tanta' in these data) was married to my uncle Arthur Nedregård which is a name which means 1) 'Arthur Lower-Farm' or 2) 'Arthur Goes-Under' - hence 'author goes under' it could mean. Hence I speculated if the 'Aunt Mary' record from 1970 could have been inspired by the death of Celan on 20 april 1970 - it has generally been assumed that he drowned himself in the Seine at Pont Mirabeau. However, this source tells that "Aunt Mary [...] laget sin -første LP i januar 1970" (= 'Aunt Mary made their first LP in january 1970"). This account tells that the record probably (if I understand the wording right) was released before Celan's death on 20 april 1970 (Hitler's birthday that was, by the way). In the summer that year, tells the account, the group member 'Per-Ivar Fure' dropped out of the group. It was in the summer (probably after I had turned 13 on 29 june) that Ragna Grøver was for a few days to a hospital in the nearby town Sarpsborg. Could be the name 'Per-Ivar Fure' could have been a part of the reason for my ideas about my penis contents being transplanted elsewhere? 'Riv a' means 'tear/pull off'. 'Frue' = 'wife'. (There could have been further cues to these ideas in the names of the rest of the group).

Now for the point: As I was looking up these data, I got curious whether the first meeting with Petter Enok Skau Jakobsen on the mattress in the autumn 1973 could have been associatively linked to the story of the end of Celan's life - say, if there had been a 'mattress' element somehow. I therefore also looked up french 'mattress' which is 1) 'matelas' (like a normal mattress) and 2) 'sommier' = the spring construction which often is found under the normal mattress, a sort of 'spring mattress' it can be called. 'Som J' is norwegian 'like J', hence one could associate with my mid name Bjarne for the idea of 'barne[t]' = 'the child' with a 'J' inside. However, if the story should have been a mattress (cp 'Lodeynoye Pole'), the 'sommiere' could have been a part of 'a rab spring' of 2011 - hence 'a rab [off]spring' and things like that.

My internet connection is by A1 in Vienna. It was later in the day that there was a rather massive traffic accident on the highway A1 in Italy, see also this article - in the area near Levanella at Montevarchi etc. (cp. the train accident in Germany a week earlier).

Now for the conclusion: All this is sheer speculation but it could have some explanatory value for the idea of a function for that 'linoleum' - since the root of the story could have been precisely the moment when Ole (Skau Jakobsen) pointed to the door and said "he is in there". 'Lind Ole um' that would have been.

What an enormous lot of intrigue this would be. How can state administration allow for such? How can I concentrate on my work when I have to write so very many pages about this?

It could be on this background that "The Dynasty" 2017 - if it should have been based on my 'Der Dornenstrauch' from 2015 - could have left imprints on the situation.

As far as hungarian 'floorcloth' (and the error in the 1979 book) is concerned, a 'padlótörlő' could also have invoked associations. 'Lå' = norw. 'laid', 'tør' = norw. 'dare', 'tő' = hungarian for 'to shoot'.

Petter Enok Skau Jakobsen arranged 'Mah-Jong' sessions with friends in the late 1980's or was it early 1990's? Clearly all these elements conspire via word-level associations only, so one should be careful and not draw any hasty conclusions from what I have outlined here.

A new 'Megamind 2' film has been launched on 1 march 2024. On 22 march 2024 there was the Crocus City Hall attack outside Moscow. This could in principle have been seen to encode the concept of 'Jens Stoltenberg's private address' - and if 'Jens Stoltenberg' should be taken to mean my slight leftsided gynecomasty (which I have speculated could have been due to early child abuse such as e.g. Hammerfest and head opening), the reference could even in principle have been seen to be in 'private address' if such data could have been a basis for the animated film ('laugh-around') or, say, the late 1980's crisis (if, say, masturbation is a necessary component for an intrigue on this basis to function). Did anything like that happen after the launch of the 'Megamind' film in late 2010? It was scheduled to be launched also in Japan (cp. the idea of 'masturbation') but since the enormous megathrust earthquake at Sendai on 11 march 2011 (one of the biggest quakes ever recorded) went off the day before the launch in Japan, it was cancelled. (11 march 2011 was, by the way, 5 days before the 100th birthday of Josef Mengele and independence day of Lithuania). I would guess that if the quake (which caused tsunamis up to 40 metres height) caused the tectonic plates ('mattresses, sort of?) to spread along a fold of about 500 km, it could hardly have been engineered by laser bombs - so the idea that the quake was a part of the 'launch' ('to hook you') is probably not interesting. However, a curious point is that the megathrust happened at 05:46:23.8 UTC - assuming the last digit (which tells a tenth of a second) rounded off it could well have been at 05:46:23.7891 UTC = at 0123456789, so to speak. That is the digital alphabet - 'a busy day, a foggy age...'. In 2010 I speculated that since the quake was just off Sendai, it could even have indexed the Literaturhaus in Vienna in 'Seiden'-gasse, intersecting by the Literaturhaus at Bandgasse (cp. the Banda Aceh earthquake of 2004 - 'Ziegler' was my school dentist in Molde up to 1970 - she could have been a proof that my teeth were fine. She was known [8/8-25: to use a thick german-like winter coat and] to be a competent skier and was said to have run down 'Hell' as it was called, a terribly steep hill behind 'Varden' north of the town - on the other side of 'Damefallet' = 'where the ladies fall').

I have no reason to believe that the film 'Megamind' is about Diesen or Holden other than the idea that these could have been in my mind somehow when I worked in that office in those days at the end of the 1980's. It would have been me who were the real reason for such a theme of the film. The details I have put together here are selected by subjective associations as far as concerns my ideas about certain 'crises' of my life and it is rather possible or probable that other subjects would consider it differently. I mention them for making it possible to see the complex in total as far as concerns not the least the east-west situation as it is today. The perpetrators of the Crocus City Hall terror are currently on trial.

News today in China Daily, New York Times, Los Angeles Times.

[8/8-25: The incidents referred to in these news were at 1100 pm and 0100 am - at 1100 14th Place. Which could mean 'not in one day but in two'. I then could notice that '14th Place' could suggest something like 'IA-ko-psen', for whatever reason].

8 august 2025:

About József Sebestyén, a hungarian man in Beregove in Ukraine: "The man's family wrote on social media that in mid-June, Ukrainian security officers had captured him on the street in Beregovo, forcibly took him to a conscription office and beat him up for not being willing to go to the front. On July 6, he died of injuries in the hospital".

The school shooting in Graz was on 10 june 2025. Russian transport minister Roman Starovoyt died on 7 july 2025. (These events were in temporal proximity to some interfacing of mine with TOP D&D. Considering the train derailment in Germany on 27 july 2025, it can be added that 'Dag Diesen' to a norwegian ear sounds very similar to 'da hakket de i issen' = 'then they hacked in the top of the head').

'Sebes' is hungarian for 'wounded, hurt'. 'Jozsef' should mean something like 'safe and sound'. My name is rather 'pedo'.

'Wien' in norwegian means 'we again'. 'Vienna' would be 'it is still us'.

'Berre gåva' in (nynorsk) norwegian means '[it is] only the gift'. 'Berre gåve' = 'only a gift'. 'Berre hove' = '(it is) only the head'.

More news.

This website was down for about an hour or so around 1100-1200 or so today.

10 august 2025:

Some notes on Paul Celan's last days.

15 august 2025:

If the fire in Notre-Dame (told in this file) should have contributed to Biden winning the US election in 2020, it could tell how disastrous it could be with potential plagiarisms of my works in US publishing: They would all know that it is illegal and hence they know that they are indebted (to me) if there have been plagiarisms. This could in fact be the reason for the massive national debt in USA: They are heavily indebted.

If so, it could be a few scenes involving me and Løveid's daughter (then 5-6 years old) in Voldgaten 1 in the late 1970's that were the story. There were not many of them - along with the two I have told there is also a brief scene outside the house when the child was climbing around on something and I think I commented something about take care dont fall down - sth like that - and her mother said that "Hilde har så god kroppsbeherskelse" = 'Hilde has (is in) such good command of her body".

Norw. "kropps-beherskelse" can also read "kropp-sbe-herskelse" = "body-small/tender-[tyrannic]-government". Biden had lost two children (= 'spe kropp' = 'small/tender body') before 2020 and this could have invoked associations to this little scene. 'Herskelse' invokes associations to 'tyrannic government' - could be also in the sense of 'trump[ete]' government.

Another was when I was in the atrium of Voldgaten 1 and she was going out with her father (probably, that is - I guessed that it could have been her father) who was living elsewhere - he had apparently come to take her out for some hours and they were just leaving. (I notice that Biden pardoned his son when leaving office some time ago). Did her father/caretaker wear a slightly 'femi' jacket - suede with some white at the lower edge (or somethiing like that)? I dont remember but fancy that there could have been something like that about it. (Santa Klaus Demus? 'Stem us' = 'vote for us'). 'Padden' = 'the toad'.

Hence if US debt due to plagiarisms is solved somehow, the national debt will probably also go down - since then they are not so indebted any longer.

hil-D-e løvei-D varvin = hill a leaf-[a]way was wind/wine → TOP D&D (top of the hill - if that is where it is the most windy)?

Of some effect it could have been that I did not know about this and could not guess this background - and I would have had to guess that there was some error I made in relation to the child which could have been the reason for some history - I should have been more welcoming when she came up and started weeping (crying) or something like that. (The door burst open and she started crying in the moment when she entered).

16 august 2025:

On 20 november 2024 I told the story allegedly from the father's childhood which also are told in this file (towards the end) and in this lengthy exposition - in fact the latter 'battling of windmills' is more than 330 normal book pages. I tried to tell what could be of importance for understanding some apparently important aspects of the story - since nobody else had told them. But I knew not so much of the logic therein. Now I discover that the story with the fire engine in fact could have been for a variant of the name of 'Hilde Løveid Varvin' - with onsets moved around. And what about the man who had a clock and always told that it said 'ti på to' = 'ten to two'? Or is it 'ti på ti' = 'ten to ten' - as for a 'T-POT T'? Today I found two emails which claimed to have come in yesterday. My A1 connection needed also payment and I paid over internet - the receipt came by email but it was two minutes late - it tells that it was 12:25 but it was really 12:27. Should it mean 'two minutes late' = 'tom in the slit' - as for a 'missing P'? 'Immo-tent' in such a context could perhaps mean that one cannot pay for one's plagiarisms. Why are there apparent 'small harassments' going on? If I go into a shop and buy an item and I go in there a day or two later, the item seems to have been removed from the shelves, as has happened several times. (Would that be because there have been plagiarisms in the culture-space?) I have made theories that Norway could have occupied my authority since my earliest days and now they dont want it to slip off - "for at den ikke skal skli-a" (the word 'sklia' is definite form of 'sklie', cp. also 'sklie' in this file). If the P is not stiff enough, it could fall out. It should not slip out? 'Viel Spass'? Safe slip. My often lengthy discussions of such forms throughout the last 20 years could have been much about taking the effect out of assumed terror which could have accompanied such 'quasi-logical' phenomena. I notice also this comment. Is it international secret intelligence services who want to make terror the new form of spirituality - including a divide-and-conquer control of the interface between human beings?

Here is a quote from the brief comments of 21 march 2025:

"The name of Windows XP could have had its origins in the story which is described on pages 127-128 in my novel 'The Dreamer' ('Something strange happened here...') - it happened while I wrote it in 1994-95. XP was perhaps launched after abuse of the unpublished manuscript to my novel seems to have started (the manuscript was not made available to the public by me before 2008) and hence it could have been one of the many business abuses that could have taken place. I recall also the search module on XP being in the form of a little dog lying on the ground with a bone between its legs and with its head going constantly up and down onto the bone - like that 'self-sucker' which could have been the theme of 'The Dynasty 1981' - could be also contained in the names of Jimmy Carter and Walter Mondale for that 'auto-fellatio' at Vikebukt ferry station in 1969. Now and then the XP dog would sit up and leave two dirty pawprints temporarily on the screen - as for a 'dirty beast in the revelation'. These two dog-tricks could have been for telling which person it was about - see this evidence for the idea of me as that mythological 'dirty beast in the revelation'. Kursk and Cole of 2000 were probably around the time when XP could have been planned".

US national debt relative to GDP:

Source = Wikipedia article: "History of the United States public debt" by this page

It is noticed that the debt went down in the years from 1995 to 2000 which is the period after my novel 'The Dreamer' 1994-95 was completed - but remained completely unpublished (and I believed it was unknown to anybody but me) - and it may be that this could have triggered extensive abuse of it, and, if that should have been the case, this could have led to unhealthy optimism and enthusiasm in USA by these phenomena when the state debt in fact went down in those years (instead of up as one should have exected) - untill Windows XP was launched globally in october 2001 and the debt started to rise again. In the autumn 2008 I made a kitchenbench edition of the novel and my 'The Endmorgan Quartet' that finally was completed in all its 16 books and gave to some libraries.

I have many Windows licences bought in shop with product key - at least 6 of them. I now tried to install one of my three Windows XPs on my home computer - but whichever computer I try, I have tried all the three XP installation disks and the installation window shows that the installation program seems to be defect:

What is the reason for this?

Unless there is some trivial technical reason (the oldest computer I tried was an Acer Aspire One laptop), which of course there could be, say, that XP does not function on more modern computers. one could make a suspicious theory: If there exists a proof inside the installation program for XP telling that it has its origins in my novel manuscript or something like that, and this proof now has been removed from all versions available on the internet, has somebody been into my home and made changes to these installation CDs - so that the program does not function any longer - and hence such a proof is lost?

Such burglary could have resembled the potential origin of XP if the strange behaviour of the cursor which I report in my novel had been due to a macro installed on my computer - that would also likely have been by burglary if this were the story.

My plan now was to install one of these XPs (with product key) on a computer and upgrade it to Windows 10 or 11. But it seems that at least these three old XP's cannot be used any longer. An original Windows 10 (USB) which I bought in a shop seems also to be dysfunctional - it is possible that it was illegally copied and the product key also was copied in a shop whereto I had gone for repair, but it was dysfunctional even before that. What are all these problems?

Nearly all computers I have had which can be used have preinstalled Windows. I have installed my licences on some hard drives which have collapsed due to technical error or FAT file viruses or whatever - or which I have replaced with bigger disks - but the number of licences I have bought in shops are much higher than the computers I currrently have which can be used and which have not a preinstalled Windows.

Microsoft is a private firm which has a rather total monopoly on the personal interface to the computer technology and if they are involved in such abuse as this could be the patent could of course be lifted over onto an international committee of experts that work in complete transparency when developing the new interface so that any sort of intrigue and political conspiracy can be avoided. This could anyhow have a magnificent effect on the world economy.

17 august 2025:

News - the streetview at 903 Franklin Avenue in Crown Heights. See the neighbour at 901 - could be for a reference to Hans-Henrik Holm poem "White spots transfigure the darkness"?

Another newspiece. 'Picnic goer' I could associate with Elieson masturbating me on the Sørland = the South Land/Country/State. Could it have been in '78? (We had gone down there some friends and for some reason or other I withdrew early for the night to an upstairs room and she a little later came up and masturbated me under the bedcover.

'Sørland' = pronounced almost like 'Celan' (only the stress is on the first syllable). Could it have been for telling that 'Celan didnt do it himself'? (See also this on 'South State').

The last time I saw Elieson was on the platform to the railway station in Fredrikstad.

Celan's first publication in a german country was in the periodical PLAN. This was also the last issue of the Zeitschrift - on 11 february 1948. ('Last of the tity sounge'?) Here is a photo of the copy that Celan kept of this last issue, photocopied here from p.78 in Badiou, B.: Paul Celan. Bildbiographie. In Zusammenarbeit mit Nicolas Geibel. Mit einem Essay von Michael Kardamitsis. Suhrkamp 2023.

18 august 2025:

What I wrote on 12 august 2025.

19 august 2025:

The meeting between Europe and the White House included the option of security guarantees to Ukraine as a possible part of a 'peace packet'. The conclusion is that the world will be very happy with peace in Ukraine.

It can be noticed that if a Black Sea Loop of persecutional terror against civilians in eastern Ukraine was what triggered the conflict (first stage in 2014 and second in 2022), it is not so certain that peace will come to be only welcomed if it could lead to a re-escalation of such possible persecutions against individuals along the eastern branch of the european swastika. It is very possible that Russia has sacrificed a lot for stopping such a terror wave which there could have been - by or on behalf of western interests. (I have fancied that Hitler came to power in 1933 with the help of such a 'Black Sea Loop' of some kind, but know little or nothing about it). If a 'Black Sea Loop' of 'chemical' persecution (people dragged to institutes of 'chemical research' and things like that, with employees of foreign origins, while the local authorities pretend that they do not know about it) against individuals should start going again with peace in Ukraine, it could spread an underearth panic which could have been planned to run as a driving force in political movements in other countries (such as in Serbia these days?) - or perhaps running up Italy as the southern arm of the same swastika.

Therefore a peace packet could include 'security guarantees' also the other way round: It could mean also guarantees from Ukraine that such personal persecution will not happen again - which would not mean guarantees from Ukraine that they now (after Russia agrees to an end to the military conflict) finally can let it start going again. For example, one could think of the theoretical possibility that e.g. England could have wanted the persecutions in eastern Ukraine since it was favourable for their foreign policies but then Russia came and stopped it and then Ukraine could not let it continue. But since England has invested much into bringing Russia's presence under control, they could perhaps want guarantees from Ukraine that the persecutions now finally can start going again - otherwise England would not have invested that much into finding a solution to the conflict. Is this a totally ridiculous theory? It is not this which is meant with 'security guarantees'?

Ukraine wants perhaps security guarantees that Russia will not attack again - but Russia could perhaps want security guarantees that the persecutions will not continue in Ukraine.

And is this 'other way round' the same phenomenon as the world turned around by Hitler dressed up as Jesus in the hearts of the people?

But maybe political parlance sees 'security guarantees' as being precisely 'the other way round'. An article on these matters?

I know little about it but fancy that a Black Sea Loop would have started in Turkey and move - by way of criminal networks and foreign agents running 'institutes' - like a worm around the Black Sea towards Paris by way of selecting names of people (victims) and places according to some metric such as e.g. my 'The Endmorgan Quartet'. I certainly hope that is not the case - but have noticed what could be abuse of e.g. this book title of mine in western business - see e.g. the comment at the end of this file under 18/8-2025 or this message which I have twice received from booking.com when looking for a cheap enough hotel room - both times for the same place - I would not stay in a dorm but my budget is limited so the option comes up). If such a terror wave should start going, a personal identity targeted as #100 will know it in the deep collective subconsciousness already after victim #2 and the 'underearth' panic will spread along the entire way of this route along the axis towards Paris while the 'worm' is moving. Of course if the 'worm' could be computed for #100 already after #2, then official authorities could also compute it - who and where the targets could come to be - if they are not all too corrupt (Russia claims that Ukraine is among the most corrupt countries, and a public uprising recently took place when the government tried to limit the authority of an anti-corruption bureau there) - and then the big question is whether the authorities would stop such persecution or not. That could perhaps be the question of 'colour revolutions' (I mean, if colour revolutions would try to get such foreign interests through).

I would not have ventilated opinions on these matters - unless the theoretic possibility could exist that there could have existed plans to involve my literary work into such strategies - something which of course I would protest very strongly against.

28 august 2025:

Yesterday I wrote down a hypothesis (which could come to be of considerable value for scientific theory) on my computer and stored the file at 12:00 local hungarian time. It would be part of my ongoing work - not yet published (or 'announced'). Today I saw the news of the school/church shooting in Minneapolis (in Annunciation Catholic Church) four and a half hour after I closed the file. The afternoon before I had also written on my computer (just a private note): "There was a popular restaurant at Szechenyi Varosresz - people were eating a nice hungarian dinner there or bought it in a window on the outside wall - very popular it seemed to be - but after I had been there once it was closed and REBUILT to a conditoria selling sweet things - a loss that was for the neighbourhood. [...]". Briefly: I had not bought my scientific hypothesis in a Windows (or anywhere else). As I was out bicycling today, my back tyre was punctured - the rubber hose seems to have been punctured on the inside of the wheel, not the outside that meets the ground. (I dont know if such hoses can twist around inside the tyre).

29/8-2025: Even this morning the same happened again - it may now have happened maybe 4-5 times in the course of this year - I had been out for an errand and when I should return the back wheel of the bicycle was flat. The tiny hole was on the inside of the wheel even this time, which means that it could have been made with a laser beam? The email to Szolnok police includes 'szolnokrk' which could have been for the target of Annunciation Catholic Church' in Minneapolis two days ago: 'Szól' is hungarian for 'speak (to)' hence 'annunciation', 'krk' is conventional norwegian abbreviation for 'church' and then 'NOK', which is the norwegian currency, could refer to 'catholic' - cp. the idea of 'auto-fellatio'. (The storks seem also to be gone - have they fallen prey to laser beams?)

30/8-2025: The storks used to be not far from a car-a-washo facility. 'Minne' is norwegian for 'memory'. 'Sota' = 'sooted', 'dark'.

30 august 2025:

In my childhood in the 1960's the Grøver family used, as I think was normal in those days, to eat 'risengrynsgrøt' = 'rice pudding' on saturdays ('lørdager'). There was an alternative to rice pudding called 'fløyelsgrøt', essentially a sort of very thick white sauce. I recall that I associated it with 'fjøllesgrøt'. At other occasions it happened that I could not eat what was served (say, a nougat-containing dish) because I was allergic to it, and when I asked if there were something else for me, I was (at least once) offered 'arme riddere' (= 'poor riders', 'poor knights') albeit, as far as I recall, on one occasion, in a simplified version of a breadslice soaked in milk with some red jam (raspberry or strawberry) on it. I now notice that if 'fjøllesgrøt' should suggest 'Føllesdal', the 'arr-me' = 'scar-with' - and if taken as 'arr' in the sense botanic 'scar' or 'stigma', it could mean 'da-kvinne' = 'there-woman' cp. 'Dagfinn Føllesdal'. His mid name 'Kåre' in the sense of greek 'κόρη = 'kore' = 'young girl', 'maiden', 'a doll' - the 'ridere' = 'to smile' (etc) could be the natural response to such a κόρη. 'Trøkk' (the word is pronounced somewhat like english 'truck') often means 'a heavy blow', such as when some event has a heavy impact on a life. 'Strøk' means often 'region', such as e.g. behind a Hauptbahnhof or something like that, or 'a painter's brush-stroke' or 'failed the exam'. When I met Føllesdal in Goldschlagstrasse - in 2021 - he was riding a bicycle in the region behind Westbahnhof - I believed that he could have been expressive of the idea that the norwegian state had to accept my PhD - which was 'flunked' in 1998 - in order to prevent that their PhDs be downgraded to MAs. The parallel Felberstrasse is, if I have understood it right, a region which has been associated with prostitution - typically cars with riders looking for female walkers ('arr-me[d]'?). 'Skrøt' means 'boasted', also in the sense of a positive evaluation of another person's work, or a donkey's bray. 'Bosted' = 'place of residence' can also be 'bopæl', cp. 'Bhopal'.

'Lørdager' = 'saturdays'. It is one of probably a few words that can change among shades of meaning by altering the toneme. Normally 'lørdager' is tone 1 (down-up), but sometimes it can be tone 2 (up-down) and then I would say that the meaning can be loaded with perhaps more specific contents or something like that - could be it has something to do with the social status of the speaker who pronounces it. (When they introduced car-free streets downtown for shopping on saturdays, which I think was in the 1970's, it could be pronounced with tone 2 - could be the phenomenon could resemble certain 'news-presenter' dialects in german - pronouncing 'Syrien in April' with a special narrow and liprounded 'yr' sound in 'Syrien' and a raised and long apical 'l' - including lowered tongue body - in 'April': This pronounciation could encode e.g. certain political views or presuppositions which are not pronounced in other ways).

Streets around my home in Zinckgasse are 'Hackengasse-Zinckgasse-Pelzgasse-Löhrgasse' - just off Westbahnhof. 'Da-hakket-de-i-issen' = 'then they hacked in the top-of-the-head'. I dont know when 'hacking' for cyber crimes was first used. Hitler once lived in the intersection Beingasse/Felberstrasse.

On saturdays, see also this about the five first saturdays.

I wrote the above in the morning today but let it remain unpublished. Later today news that Ukraine's 'Andriy Parubiy' had been assassinated around 12:00, the time of my computer file the other day. Kyiv Independent. Andre Breton, Tor Ulven ('venn' = 'friend', 'ven[d]' = 'turnaround'), Kirsten Ribu, who referred to a joke by Ulven on 'Jesrup Kristrup'.

4 september 2025:

The 'wonderbra' at 07:15 could mean that the rejection of my PhD in 1998 could have been planned since the 1940's?

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